Roller-Coaster
A shiny day with no mummer jumping towards me, feeling my breath so deeply that I can sense my heart pumping. Closing the eye and remembering all the story-tales that once was a sleeping pill. Blowing wind and wind chimes are hugging each other so tightly that the whole place has suddenly changed and become a lover-spot. Suddenly, there’s a footstep counting on me, to get me out of my bed and everything comes back to reality.
Snoring and watching self in the mirror, pleasing the paste to come out so that I can brush my teeth. Taking shower is not the mood today, want to go for a walk but laziness is in love with me. Getting back to bed and watching my ceiling as if, planets are rotating around me, the stars are striking and the moon is shining bright, the sun is trying to get in the picture but fails. Watching me mummer the foot-step came right in front of my face and drag me to work on breakfast. Choosing the right kind of knife is always the struggle because there is no choice to choose, I have only one.
Want to stalk strangers but not in a mood. Getting to a gallery and watching videos of my first ever roller-coaster, my mind says, “damn, I am so freaked out” and somewhere my heart covered with pericardium said, “aww! I am with you, it’s going to be amazing”. Stepping on that front seat was the biggest trauma I ever gave to my own body. Breathing deeply, sounding completely fine, the whole-body temperature has turned cold, want to close my eyes but also I don’t. The whistle sound was clear even the wheels were started working, want to stop and go back home, but I didn’t.
It was working, I was holding my hands tight, eyes were open, it was about to go down and the only thing I felt was my whole chain of organs are out of my body. I screamed all my bad deeds and asked winds to forgive me, not at all in the senses to talk but can scream. After half of the round, I felt good, I was able to breathe, thanking wind to forgive me but, suddenly it started again and I realized it is just half.
The cycle repeated, and it came to the endpoint, feeling dizzy, don’t know what to do but when I saw those people, being exited to try the same I was happy. Looking into my phone and smiling while watching it, foot-steps came back but this time to kiss my forehead. After that, we went on and on in those memories. Foot-steps whispered, “Life is not a Roller Coaster, it is what you will make it. Decide whether you want turns or ups-downs”. The smile was still the same, like when she made me realize how lucky I was to get the ride.
I changed my perspective and my assumptions took something from her and trusted my turns with some concern adding by myself. Something changed that day!